The Socialies of Social Media…#30writingchallenge

Happy November 1, yes it is November, that cleansing season. the time of the year when you release everything that no longer serves and finds ways to heal who you are and choose to become a better person, internally! So, let’s start with me…normally, I don’t accept writing challenges and seeing how I write daily, adding an additional 1000 words or so to my day is not much. So, I am doing new things, weird to write it out. I am such a stickler with what works but what works hasn’t been working, so, CHANGE! is always the answer.

Yesterday, I realized I’d not spoken to a good friend in about three weeks, I will say, I am not the sit on the phone for hours at a time friend, but she and I usually text or use some form of communication to check in and touch bases. SO, I started to wonder, although, seeing her on FB and INstagram, I could see that she was doing fine through the post but sometimes that can be all the way deceiving.  yes, her face had a smile and her clothes looked put together but what I couldn’t see, was that she was going through a crisis. I couldn’t see that she wasn’t in the best of moods, I couldn’t see that her relationship had plummetted, I couldn’t see that her son had begun to work all the nerves she had left. But, I felt it, I felt that something wasn’t right because I missed her energy. Which leads me to the subject at hand, Social media can and has been so deceiving even with myself, I hear people say to me all the time I see everything is good with you through your FB page. Really, damn, you could send me a DM or something, pick up the phone and call seeing how I have had the same two phone numbers for the past ten or more years. Lies, I tell you lies, people can see anything through social media except what you want them to see. Could you see that I was in a car accident a few months before my Earthday? Could you see that I was in a neck and back brace for three weeks, could you see that I was having panic attacks and Vertigo and all types of bad shyt that are not ever supposed to happen to artist, HELL, we are crazy enough without the hormonal imbalance and the serious uncertainty that pain meds and antibiotics can have on the body, GEESH!

Could you see all of that through my FB post, because if you saw all of that, why didn’t you call, send a message, comment on the post. Because, you couldn’t see all of that, social media, allows us to feed you just enough information to think that our situation is more than it is, when it is not. See my friend looked happy in the post, the pictures, but she wasn’t/isn’t, she is battling internally the next chapter of her life and it is taking a toll on her spiritually. But How would I have known that if I just went my what the social media website look like?

It’s almost like what happens when a video goes viral, socially and the major networks pick it up and tries to break it down into something that it’s not or worse more than it is. Social media, is exactly what most people were taught not to do, Don’t judge a book by it’s cover. although, we know that we shouldn’t we do anyway. We look at the newsfeeds and timeline and take it completely at face value without using our common sense to figure out what is really going on. My main issue is when you know the person, personally, you had a relationship with the person at some point in time in your life, but you won’t send a message to say “how’s everything” what does that really say about you as a person, you as someone that said at some point in your life you were that person’s friend?

Social Media is a distortion as well as an avenue for you to become a vehicle of jealousy and pettiness. It’s the high school reunion for adults that lack a social life, it the platform for the cool kid that wasn’t so cool in high school, it’s a barrage of “I got mine, you get yours,” but no one seems to be helping anyone, we all are just apart of the universal plot “to keep up with the Jones!” Phuck the Jones, who are they anyway, I wish you could see the people I know on social media really doing, the people who have no car note, no credit card debt, no mortgage payments, taking international trips…those are the people I enjoy following on social media, those are the attributes, I desire to have.

The next time you see a friend on social media, or someone you care about for that matter, don’t take a post at face value especially when you know better of them, seek understanding or better just say HELLO.

Better yet, what happens when Social Media tells you the relationship you had with a friend is not that relationship, do you believe Social media?!

Just a question.

Peace in the Morning

Recently, with all the panic attacks, hormonal imbalances and all of that I decided that I need to change, Again! Change this time in a way that nothing is the same and all of my life is upside down until I clear out the negative energy. My change would start the time of morning I rose from bed. When my first alarm went off at 4:45am, I would get up out the bed and stay, until nap time or even time to retire for the night. This has been my habit for more that 14 days now and I can honestly say, I am in love with the peace I have found. Case in point, this morning after my alarm went off I figured, I do morning meditation, release my bowels and then return to bed, it’s Friday, I had nothing to do for real before 10am, I’ve not been off on a Friday in “I don’t know”, so why not return to bed. Well, after the morning I’ve had, no creamer for my coffee, no coconut milk no make creamer, no eggs, burnt my pancake, no water in the filter pitcher, My mum is not in the best mood, because she got 5,100 questions for me and normally she’s got a hey how are you doing? and My Sun being out of school today…All of that  Almost, phucked up my life. But, I remembered that it’s all apart of the process. I am not going to let other people ruin my day because they have no way of handling the negative energy in their lives. So, I missed that three hour period where no one wanted to talk to me, or the part where no one disrespected the fact that your eyes being closed meant that you were sleep. I really missed all of that and It is just 10am. My point is, make sure you take time out for you. Make sure at some point in your day, you set aside a time for you to just be with you. My time is mornings and am I disappointed the I didn’t take that time this morning.  My Peace in the morning is everything to me, Everything!

The Morning Download

Often, I awake so early that it is still night out yet, so late that others in my world are just lying down to rest. I am 26 days into my 40th cycle around the sun and let me just say, it has been different and interesting to day the least. My Hormones have been high and low, gauging where and things are going has been nonexistent.

I am in a Fight and yet my Adversary is unseen.

So, who am I fighting? That has been the question…the question for the past three weeks or so. At, first the fight was with my co-workers; I called everyone on the carpet including myself. Only to find, all of my grievances, chucked off to the side as “oh maybe is just a simple issue of miscommunication. Question: How can 6 people all have the same miscommunication issue? I digress. Then, I fought with my fellow peers in my career genre, not really a fight more like a series of Power Puff Girl, “KaPOW, Zaam, POOF’s” You know, the moment when you see where you are truly going, how it has been designed for you to get there and yet, your peers think that hinders you my exclusion. Only to wake up a year from now realizing that were actually the footstools that coined the phrase, “POOF, and just like that all the Fucks I gave were GONE!”

Then I woke up this morning to find that all this time the fight has been with myself. The Dark side, the Shadow I hid from for most of my life, the side that says: “You couldn’t be me, if you needed too.” That side the side that knows the Most High walks with us daily and we sit in Their Presence daily. We are there expression of love in the living word.

So, why hide this shadow self?

Why cover the better part of who you are?

Why shield the world from this you?

I’ll tell you why, this Shadow side used to scare me, but I am not afraid anymore. I know that there is life and death and after death there is life again and for years that frightening me. the uncertainty of being clueless as to the next steps in life, the formidable unknown. The living blindly as having no Concept of time. Yes, I have full awareness of time, and I have no intention of allowing anyone else nor anything else hinder my collection of love while I am existing within time.

Concept of Time makes all the difference, I realized that before 40, most of live without thinking of our decisions, placing us in season of regret, depression and temporary elation. But what if you lived with a concept of Time on a daily basis? Lived in the presence of G-d on a daily basis? How different will your life be? How on purpose would your actions, behavior become? I can’t remember when I became so afraid of who I was born to be, but I do know that I have been operating in a season of fear for way to long and for that I apologize to the people who have been Cheering for me and the people who have been secretly plotting my demise. I have been sent you let you know that your works of iniquity and dealings in Dark Magic that you do no understand are Officially out of TIME.